
Last night at midnight, in a symbolic fuck you to myself, I took a small handful of laxies. I never take them. As a teenager I abused them so badly that when I do take them it is an excruciating experience. It feels like my stomach is going to burn a hole through my skin.
I'm fucking sick...in the head and otherwise. For the first time today, I'm sitting up in bed and I'm going to take a few benzos to make sure I don't stay up too long.
I'm not suicidal, I just wish I were dead.
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